Doing it my way - a breakthrough

Diets aren’t real life. I usually go total nazi and won’t deviate a single bit or if I do deviate I figure the whole thing is blown and quit. Not this time.

Spring is here and Chuck can’t sit still. He likes to get away on the weekends. This past weekend we went to Williamsburg. I started my deviation on Wed. night - I totally wanted chicken teriyaki and had a bento box for dinner - it was quite a bit of food. I didn’t eat all of the chicken or the rice, but ate all of the sushi. Thursday afternoon we headed out. He was jonesin’ for Outback - so I shared a filet with Vivi and ate all of my loaded potato myself. You can imagine how the rest of the trip went. I indulged. It was a choice and I was in control. Sat. night on the way home we stopped at Maggiano’s for dinner - that place could add 20lbs in one meal!

I’m choosing to live my real life and work it all out and not be a slave to the diet. I will lose weight more slowly, but this is a lifetime change, not a quick diet and back to eating “normal”. I will continue to input my food and watch the calories. I’m learning and not making myself wrong as I so often do. I was hungry today and had a snack - the rest of the gnocchi from Maggiano’s. It didn’t put me over the edge - I”ll just have to watch what I eat for dinner. I know I can’t let myself get hungry or let my blood sugar drop - then it is all over. Allowing myself to choose instead of feeling confined and making myself wrong is so freeing and allows me to go with my day and not constantly focus on food and my next meal.

I have also noticed how much more energy I have when I’m eating healthy. It’s ironic, the more fat and sugar I eat and the fuller I feel, the more I want to keep stuffing my face. The veggies make me feel so much better and no cravings. I have this thing - when I eat cheese, I want chocolate. Weird.

My little graph showing my progress will be a zig zag up and down instead of a nice slope downward. That’s ok. As long as the trend is down. I backtracked 2 lbs. and now I’m sliding down a little more slowly, but it’s only been 2 weeks.

The rain seems to have stopped, maybe I can get a good walk in this afternoon.